God and I Versus All

One out of 3 grand exam I have this year is completely over: AP World History.

It seems like everything is done and I can finally play but in reality I have 3 week to study for SAT II World History and the Finals, in fact, my anxiety shouldn’t be gone at all.

Even when I was in 9th grade, I was in awe over the people taking AP’s, aww those people are so smart! (Now I realize the reality, by taking the course myself .) Anyways I’m taking big tests that matter in my life now. I’m a big big grown up man.

So, by preparing for the my first AP exam ever, I learned two following facts:

• One day cramming is not possible, but one week cramming is possible at the cost of GPA.

I was lucky to have the second spring break right before exam, which I used all time studying for studying for AP with minimal effect to my GPA. Only about 5 – 10% of what I knew about world history came out during the test, at most. There is a possibility of getting lucky. Still, the best way is to study hard evenly throughout the year, and I regret I didn’t do that because I didn’t quite realize how hard it was to prepare for. Next time when I take AP I’ll probably be more diligent.

• Only way to study for AP is becoming a nerd.

Basically for past few weeks, ‘playing’ and the ‘usual fun’ disappeared among my fellow AP taking friends. Hands were always occupied with AP and SAT prep books and some extremists manufactured their own note cards for it. about 85% of the conversation was about World History. We would quiz each other every day:

“What is the Hundred Years War?”
“It’s a war between France and England in mid 1400’s to mid 1500’s, happened because there was no candidate for the successor of the throne; England decided to take it and thus war happened. English army first pawned the French army with their invention called cross bows, but at the moment France was to fall Joan of Arc completely owned England and led to French victory. This is one of the last events closing the Medieval period and power of monarchy was increased in both sides as a result. ”

“Who is Josip Broz Tito?”
“He is a legendary dictator who led to independence of Yugoslavia. He managed to keep peace between many diverse races in the Balkan, but after his death, things went back to chaos.”

These were the usual topic my friends and I usually talked about, especially in the lunch line, people would stare at us. It was my very first time feeling pretty cool to be nerd; it was queer. From now on, I plan to be a nerd, until the the end of first semester of Senior year. I just hate myself how I realize things too lately; I don’t get to understanding before I experience. I feel pretty dumb and numb afterwards. Like, some of my most excellent friends learned the importance of being nerds in 8th grade. Not fair.

And all materials in AP is not supposed to be discussed. Like, the we can talk about essays 48 hours later and multiple choice never. Why is that? Like, if I mention some question I remember to a post here, and if a AP admin reads it, my score is going to be canceled? Well, it’s not even possible because I already forgot the stuff came out in the test Anyhow I wonder the AP’s intention of doing such. Like, our score’s not going to change by discussing questions after the test is over…

I think I did sort of okay in multiple choice… but I spent too much time on planning on essay and felt rather rushed. Hope results come out well in third week of July, it would be a nice reminder to me that such thing like AP existed in my life.

And I am planning to write the ACT II of my own Importance of Being Highschool since the responses for the ACT I seemed pretty good.. I’m brainstorming now to fit my new ideas to the jigsaw of Oscar Wilde. Expect it some time before next next Monday because this weekend I’m haella busy.

i love my life.